The hits just keep on coming

     Well, the hits just keep on coming.  I was talking to Randi yesterday, and she again expressed a desire to go to the Buckeye Stitchers fall retreat.  We had discussed it before, but I'm not willing to drive that far.  I would LOVE to go to the spring retreat though.  It's in Hocking Hills which is southeast of Columbus.  Fall retreat is in Belin which is three and a half hours away compared to an hour and a half away.  I really don't do well on long trips.  I can't do the trip up to Julie's in one fell swoop.  I usually stop twice, once at Xenia (pronounced Zenia) about an hour in and again in Grove City at about an hour and fifty minutes in.  I need to stretch my legs because when I drive, I get very tense.  Julie always tries to do for me because I'm so sore when I get there, and it's just because I'm so tense driving.  I think it's mostly my legs, neck, and back that are stressed.  And my shoulders.  I just tense everything up.  Maybe because I'm always looking to avoid an accident, so I'm watching traffic and road signs and other cars and big trucks and behind and next to and in front of my car...  Anyways, she called me selfish, said I was a liar, and has refused to speak to me since.  As I never told her I would take her to Berlin, IDK why I'm a liar.  So another thing to stress over.  I was up all night last night, of course, because I can't get in with my sleep doc until the thirtieth, and he won't renew my sleeping pill prescription until I do.  So I'm just SOL.  And of course, when I stress, I can't sleep without help.  Heck, sometimes I can't even sleep with help!!  My chest is all tight and my stomach is upset.  Urg, sometimes I feel like I just can't win.  

     I don't see it as selfish though.  I'm in misery after the drive to Columbus, so why wouldn't I be after a longer drive.  And since there is another option that's closer, I'd be happy to do that.  If Berlin were the only option, then I would, of course, consider it.  I'm not a selfish person.  Of course, that is not to say I'm never selfish.  I'm sure I am selfish at times, just like any other human being.  But in general, selfishness isn't one of my faults.  I need to get her addy though, as I still have the stuff she left here, and I need to send it back to her.  Hopefully, I can get over this blow and move on.  I hate when I don't understand people...

     I also started ToS tonight.  Right now I'm working on the trunk, and I don't have much done, so I'm not gonna take a piccy.  I've probably put in all of thirty stitches, lol.  It took me a while to get started though.  I had to remeasure the fabby and make absolutely sure I have enough.  I do, yay!  I need six point seven something inches and I have nine.  I know my framer can work with that as Randi left less than a half inch on one side of Cat Lessons and he said he didn't even have to add extra fabby.  (I was impressed.)  So I have an inch on each side for ToS, and then a lot at the top and bottom.  (Not enough to cut it off and use it for something else though.  I have about four inches top and bottom.  Plenty to frame, but not enough to be able to use.)  So I'm still up at five AM (well, five forty one now) and stressed, so I think I'm gonna go stitch and listen to some music.  Hope you all have a wonderful day!!  Next time, I'll have piccys for you!!